breathe it in, breathe it out

i've been so myself and content for such a long time i forgot the change and the growth discontentment can bring around.
to be surrounded by such incredible talent and god given gifts for a whole day really allows me to look inside myself and realize what i need to do, what i long for, how i can make it happen.
i used to be in this situation and assume i'm a failure, i'm going nowhere. to be envious of such ease and such incredible opportunities given to others. but i'm growing. i know i am just steps away from where they are, from what they do. and how achievable it all is. it kind of blows me away.

and even if this isn't where i'm supposed to be, if this isn't what i'm supposed to do, i don't care. because my future is written in the sky. the world is at my fingertips and i'm immersed in it. everything that could ever make me happy is right around the corner, and i'm eternally happy because of that fact. nothing can tear me down.

i was made for more than what i am. mediocracy is one of my biggest fears, but because of how i am wired, how i was made, i know its not a reality.

the wind is calling out to me "you were born to live this life"