i just want to break you down so badly

sometimes, she is just not sure of herself. this parallel to years ago is dragging her back into someone she never wanted to be. she is pushing away those she cares strongly about. she hasnt any control over who she is and how she acts. she is rash and confused; thier lack of room for outlet, this privacy they betrayed could get the best of them. she is thinking he is someone he isnt. its her mistake, a slip of her mind, a mirage years later she cant seem to let go. its rare when the reality is hidden by a worser image, as far as mirages go. this urgancy to please, to placate, to be there, to anger is more present for the first time in years, and its not how she wants it. her mind is a constant jumble of making connections and breaking them down, a desire to not repeat mistakes she knows will be the death of her