so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick

why does this stuff ALWAYS seem to happen to me? why? why?
im calling you out
im numb (in my heart) from the cold (that you are). i'm tired of living this way and i want this to be small. i want this to work
why won't it work?!
im so tired of being frustrated and im so tired of dealing with tiny things. im so sick of being let down.
work for me. work with me.
she's not like him, and she wants to comform. i've got my own way. i'll find my own way.
i'm sick of you.
i'm tired of you.
i want OUT.

who am i writing for now. myself? or you?