maybe i could live forever..

so many moments of my life have passed without a second thought.
but there are those that have passed that have left me breathless and reeling when i think of them.

moments like tonight, driving down a dark road with a song playing and replaying memories of incredible nights. i couldnt believe the memory of one night could bring me to tears; i think it was a combination of all of the below that pushed me.

-a night under the stars playing the alphabet picture game with four of my closest friends at the fifty yard line.
-dragging picnic tables into lakes to create our own islands with a best friend, an ex friend, and a young love.
-getting passed by dune buggies on the highway.
-endless laughter and inside jokes between friends and lunch tables. mutual hate of another.
-making up ridiculous dances all years of my childhood and into my late teens. its still going on.
-planning parties, getting in fights, and making up over dances dressed in black and white.
-driving down the middle of the highway in pouring rain in the middle of the night after meeting amazing band members.
-forgetting to turn on my headlights and driving by the moonlight.
-yet another night spend at the fifty yard line, kentucky friends and family clashing and molding into one perfect night.
-flying kites out of car windows.
-a jacket being slipped over my shoulders, followed by an arm, and later an amazing kiss in the middle of the road under the moon.
-finding ridiculous town names and pointless exits in the middle of states. rarity?
-sitting in a car, hearing the first piano measures of the song that would change my entire life.
-on hour five of a six hour car drive, looking over and seeing dad's eyes filled with tears, his hand tight on mine.
-'hook forest' and lanterns breaking and pants being ripped.
-hanging out with the hush sound, security guards, and andrew mcmahon. my dream come true. it was with you.
-offroading in a bmw with the sun roof open and the same song on repeat for hours.
-riding on sleds, crashing into pool fences, soaring into thorn bushes, peeing our pants.
-never getting words out, but understanding everything we meant to say.
-stumbling words and fingers over message boards, to IMs, to texts, to phone calls..
-conversations in cars being interrupted by easily breaking into singing the song on the radio, right back to conversation without skipping a beat
-nicknames, le bone, pierre, hiroshima
-chasing down chipmunks, geese, hitting people with cattails
-waiting hours and hours at bookstores for the release of a book, returning later to collect a giftcard from the slowest moving person ever
-sitting next to a band as they belt out an acoustic song, to be met by enthusiastic singing from the crowd of twenty gathered around.
-the first 'i love you'
-a mountaintop on colorado


these moments complete my life.
every single one of them goes noticed.
takes my breath away.

..i love you all.