and no i don't feel right, i can see but i've lost my sight

things are happy right now.
if i had to describe it in color i'd pick yellow orange red and maybe blue.
i feel like i can conquer the world right now, and im not far away from everything i hold for myself.
i have connections, i just have to follow through.
and i feel as if i can convince anyone anything i need to.
i feel very motivated and great about it.
i can't even explain why i feel this way.

i like being in school but i feel as if i'll be bored with it in a few years.
i honestly just want to pick up and leave every month and go somewhere new for awhile every few weeks.
i want to meet everyone.
i want to know everything.
i want to see everywhere there is to see.
i want to experience life on the go and living out of a suitcase for months upon months.
i want to know firsthand what all of those songs mean; what the people who write them feel.
to be surrounded by moving landscapes, ever changing. to drown out the endless chatter of boys with headphones and their music.
to spend night setting up and planning and selling or overlooking and listening and making sure things are in the right place and meeting people in new places;
making them feel like they belong, like they do to me.
just for a season of my life; not forever.
i feel like its right there.
im so optimisitic

im so talkative.
im so out there.
im so giddy.
TAKE ME AND MAKE ME WHAT YOU WANT.
i just need to be asked anything and ill answer.
im open, you know it.
im waiting for nothing and everything.
i love the weather; so unpredictable.

i want to live in that house.
i feel content in the fact i can make plans for next year and know they will happen.
im not going anywhere.


and maybe im crazy but lightning might strike me tonight.